1. Love Me
2. Leave Me
Hello!
Today is neither here nor there, just the day we went swimming. I guess the day before my appointment, too...
Heh. It seems so long ago that i paced the entire ground floor of HMV(nearly wearing out my shoes), going pass the mirror in that footwear shop 2139 times, waiting for you till the cows(and cowboy) went home. The 2 hour dinner at marche, your "do u know the difference between a meal and dinner?", the tour to meridian hotel, the walk back to dhoby ghaut, you sending me back home.
Haha... The fragmented memories of us meeting at Jurong East, going over to chinatown for fish porridge... Having fish porridge at my void deck. You coming over just to install warcraft. It seems like we've been thru so many things in ten short months. Hugs. Kisses. *censored* massages, quarrels and all.
Today was scary. It seemed to me you were dropping veiled hints/threats all day about no longer wanting me. Suddenly my heart got heavier, and it occurred to me that when one day you really get tired of me i should really get worried. Hahaha. Right now i'm not sure how to continue. But at least now i know how you feel whenever i mention a breakup.
Whenever i sit down to think about it, i think its quite amazing how you haven't requested for a breakup. Keeping in view the number of times i get cranky and (almost) impossibly unreasonable. You give in to me very often, and let me have my way, and the last word on most things. You shower me with roses, hugs, love and a whole lot of kisses. You dote on Kejun and Shaggy, and you travel alot. You put in alot of effort to not let me feel insecure, and you cook for me too. You massage me, tease me, play badminton with me, and invariably make me cantankerous.
The only thing i'm certain i give you is hard ons. Ugh. I'm sure i give you headaches and heartaches too...
Haha. You make me laugh alot too... and you let me lick your toes *yum* you also allow me to get rowr rowr at you...
Certainly you (unknowingly) give me
Heh. Those are not excuses for me threatening to break-up, over and over again.
I'm pretty sure you're tired of my apologies, too.
Therefore i shan't say i'm sorry. (even though i am). Actions speak louder than words. I shall try my bestest to keep you till you decide i'm too much hassle, haha. In the meantime, i am sure we'd be able to overcome whatever obstacles that stand in our way, together. After all, we are more or less experienced. =)
From now till i become an old crone, you shall hafta continue tolerating my crankiness (which i will try to curb) while i shall go about learning how to deal with you.
I love you, Victor Chen. Don't give up hope on us yet.
Your Xiaowen. 18/11/2004
I suggest you take option 1 (My life depends on it.)
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A letter found while cleaning my room today. One i am reading for the first time, in 2009.
Sometimes i really wonder how she is.
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