You Have Two Options.

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1. Love Me
2. Leave Me

Hello!

Today is neither here nor there, just the day we went swimming. I guess the day before my appointment, too...

Heh. It seems so long ago that i paced the entire ground floor of HMV(nearly wearing out my shoes), going pass the mirror in that footwear shop 2139 times, waiting for you till the cows(and cowboy) went home. The 2 hour dinner at marche, your "do u know the difference between a meal and dinner?", the tour to meridian hotel, the walk back to dhoby ghaut, you sending me back home.

Haha... The fragmented memories of us meeting at Jurong East, going over to chinatown for fish porridge... Having fish porridge at my void deck. You coming over just to install warcraft. It seems like we've been thru so many things in ten short months. Hugs. Kisses. *censored* massages, quarrels and all.

Today was scary. It seemed to me you were dropping veiled hints/threats all day about no longer wanting me. Suddenly my heart got heavier, and it occurred to me that when one day you really get tired of me i should really get worried. Hahaha. Right now i'm not sure how to continue. But at least now i know how you feel whenever i mention a breakup.

Whenever i sit down to think about it, i think its quite amazing how you haven't requested for a breakup. Keeping in view the number of times i get cranky and (almost) impossibly unreasonable. You give in to me very often, and let me have my way, and the last word on most things. You shower me with roses, hugs, love and a whole lot of kisses. You dote on Kejun and Shaggy, and you travel alot. You put in alot of effort to not let me feel insecure, and you cook for me too. You massage me, tease me, play badminton with me, and invariably make me cantankerous.

The only thing i'm certain i give you is hard ons. Ugh. I'm sure i give you headaches and heartaches too...

Haha. You make me laugh alot too... and you let me lick your toes *yum* you also allow me to get rowr rowr at you...

Certainly you (unknowingly) give me some a little bit   .  <<< this little bit of insecurity. and heartaches too. But nah. i'm not insecure, not over you. I trust you, a lot. You motivate me sometimes. make me procrastinate at other times. Sometimes you make me feel  .  <<< this much intelligent. argh. i cannot deal with you when you're bad-tempered, too. 

Heh. Those are not excuses for me threatening to break-up, over and over again.
I'm pretty sure you're tired of my apologies, too.

Therefore i shan't say i'm sorry. (even though i am). Actions speak louder than words. I shall try my bestest to keep you till you decide i'm too much hassle, haha. In the meantime, i am sure we'd be able to overcome whatever obstacles that stand in our way, together. After all, we are more or less experienced. =)

From now till i become an old crone, you shall hafta continue tolerating my crankiness (which i will try to curb) while i shall go about learning how to deal with you.

I love you, Victor Chen. Don't give up hope on us yet.

Your Xiaowen. 18/11/2004

I suggest you take option 1 (My life depends on it.)
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A letter found while cleaning my room today. One i am reading for the first time, in 2009.
Sometimes i really wonder how she is.

Pew Pew'ed.

When i get pew pew'ed 2 things happen.

Either i pew pew back or i take the shot and i quit the game.

GG.

Pew pew.

Rules:It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag twenty people.Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real...nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.

1. What is your name : Victor
2. A four Letter Word : Vain
3. A boy's Name : Vincent
(next nearest V name people mistake me by)
4. A girl's Name : Vanessa
5. An occupation : Ventroloquist (only one left is Veterinarian)
6. A color : Violet
7. Something you'll wear : Vibrator (seriously? no. nuh uh. NEXT.)
9. A food : Venison (deer meat)
10. Something found in the bathroom: Ventilation
(If u dont already have it, get it. quick.)
11. A place : Venice
12. A reason for being late : Very ___
(fill in excuse, e.g. hot/long traffic jam/packed bus)
13. Something you'd shout : VENGEANCE! (RAWR)
14. A movie title : V for Vendetta (i know i'm good)
15. Something you drink : VODKA (thank you God.)
16. A musical group : Venga Boys (oldskool ftw)
17. An animal : Viper
18. A street name : Victoria Street
(hopefully her secrets are here too)
19. A type of car : Volkswagen (God is pwning this quiz.)
20. The title of a song : Viva la Vida - Coldplay (what can i say...)

Well i dont know where 8. went. Seems missing. Time to channel wit elsewere more productive.