My grandmother just had a heart attack 3 days ago. But she's fine now.
Life's so hard and volatile i've decided that few things matter as much. This isn't about where we end up in the afterlife but its silly for me to be passive aggressive most of the time like some trigger explosive, with that i would like to resolve to be a nicer person, more accepting of people and their ways even if this isn't reciprocated. I'm far from perfect myself and have too long a way to go to even begin criticizing others
Another thing happened in between this period while we were a bunch of co-workers playing dota after work. I hadn't known i was playing a game with actual people in the room and i was a little short tempered, making unneccesary comments about the people playing together with me in the same room. As you can guess i had to end up apologising profusely and i had no other option but to humble myself even when they said it was alright.
This brings me to question all of us. What's really important? I think i have a few misconceptions i would like to rectify and re-configure before i have a heart attack myself.
At the end of all our mortal phases here, when all your friends and even enemies sit around talking about you, how you live, how you died et al, truths will prevail. Misunderstandings will clear up, its like a proverbial weighing scale of sorts albeit no they dont decide where u do go in your afterlife however they are and will continue to be a good indicator.
Resolving to change, i shall.