Saturday Night[o] Fever.

Now @ Gran Cyber Cafe b@gus.

Awesome atmosphere here. for rates like 1250 yen [about 18SGD], you get an 8hour time block of usage. So for about $2.20/hr, u get a P4 3.2 ghz com with 2GB ram, a huge 21 inch LCD monitor, Limitless access to any form of media here [Newspapers, magazines, comics, internet], oh did i mention u also get a free flow of drinks too? they have this whole array of fruit teas and coffees to chose from, at no extra charge even. Free flow of sugar, honey and milk too. Wow.

My Favourite? the blueberry tea with 2 dallops of honey/ hr. Muahaha. Don't be looking at me. i'd be having a caffeine overdose by the time its 2am. yup i started at 6pm. after a nice 500 yen[$6.75 sgd] meal at a 24 hr eatery near the hotel. What did i eat? a standard katsudon. Thats supposed to be breaded pork fried till crispy, with half cooked eggs and a nice blend of soy sauce of some sort, which they plop on top of a big bowl of rice. Complete with a pretty big salad, a bowl of miso soup, as well as free flow of ice water and green tea. Burp.

Brb. 2nd tea awaits. Lets try cherry this time. <3.

Back. Okay haha no one stopped me from me tea party. so we can reasonably deduce that the induction above, is accurate. Its selectively lit here. Except for where people read stuff or when they're at their coms. The ambience here suggests a great reverance for personal space and self occupation, the focus is what you are doing, what you are reading, etc. Thankfully i was given priority to swap to a non smoking room instead. Man, they're right. Next to a smoker here, the PSI really is about 300. and non smoking areas are about 150 haha. Ciggies here come by too affordable man. i mean like wtf? Not only is it only $3-4SGD per Hardpack mind you. They even have ciggie dispensers too?! [there aren't soft packs here i think]

Here, seldom u will find people smoking one or two sticks. its all or nothing almost. yea. over dinner they smoke the whole dang pack Oo and no way will they advertise some damaged organ or orifice for the sake of social hypocrisy. Ala my own country which likes to advocate one thing but its always the CB "oh if in event our message does not get thru, then we might as well embark on what we feel is some social optimum by taxing more lor" mentality.

Night life here is pretty wild. i mean wow. at below 10 degrees Celsius the girls are wearing... Hotpants? Hah. maybe when u have to wait 6 months to wear it for a few weeks per year. yea the itch? i totally understand >_<|| Anyways. Daylight is about 7am here and Sunset is a very early 4pm. Once it hits 6pm people are dining everywhere. Not to mention all em nationalities come out. Nigerians/Jamaicans [yo marn. u want a marsarge/ blojorb? it be very good ya], mainland Chinese[nian2 qing1 ren2! jiang3 guo2 yu3 bah! lailai bie2 hai4 xiu1! zhe4 li3 de niu'er zhen4 dian3!] Koreans even[bo go ship[da]ment goooood...] i even see filipinos here. Guess what Persistence is.

Its following you past. like. 4 streets. fwaseh. 4 streets later, i think like, different pubs/brothels belong to the same conglomerate. yikes. They switch the goaders/pimps.

Brb. Lets do the orange tea now.

Back. Some chio waitress just walked past me and said what i believe to be "enjoy your stay, sir!" in japanese. That is it. That is SO it. the people here are amazingly docile and polite. Everything said and done is gracious and immensely elegant. They bow to acknowledge you when u buy something or endorse any service. I kinda feel Japan to be an incredibly humble sort of country. Over here, there isnt and form of service tax which is latched unto consumption of any form. But rather, the whole i must respect everyone else because i owe it to society in general for my subsistence is impeccably etched unto almost every Japanese here. End result? Although u pay a little more for consumption here. Service equalises.

Kyoto to and fro is about 7 hrs total travel time on the bullet train. Visited a shrine or two and even saw a geisha yesterday. Such presence she had. Kids there are pretty independant i guess. saw 2 girls barely 6 or 7 taking the crowded bus with everyone else. Bus fares here are 1.50sgd per child and 3sgd per adult. Maybe we shouldn't Complain about transport fees back in SG so much haha. Cabs start at a calling price of 9sgd. The Japan Rail Pass is an unlimited travel worth 400sgd. Renewable on a per weekly basis.

Food here is pretty much healthy. With mounds of salads and green teas subtly assimilated into every meal here, its no wonder why Japan has a much lower Mortality rate and a much higher life expectancy[82.2 yrs] compared to the rest of asia. Ageing population you say? Well. i haven't yet understood Japan's social security network yet, But i do know that on trains and buses, younger people always get up for them. Without Prompt whatsoever. Older person enters bus. Younger person automatically offers seat. Betcha didnt know that bus engineers here engineer a bus to Torque it 15-20 degrees toward the embark/disembark side of the bus. When the bus stops, the tires deflate one side to allow easier boarding and alighting. That done it inflates again toward the normal and moves on. Lol. Nudge nudge SBS.

Okay i know i don't really need another Tea. So lets try going to raid the free flow of fresh milk for tea. Just for the milk. Brb.

Yum lol. Oh. Did i mention that there are speciality stores which cater rooms for u to wank in? You pay like 500yen[$6.75sgd] for an hour to yourself in a small cosy room with a huge tv set and cordless earphones. They even provide for you a replica of the female anatomy to intensify your experience. You get to choose from their catalog of about 2000 dvds. You take a shopping cart and select 6 dvd's per hour you pay for. 12 dvd's for 2 hrs and so on. And yes they still greet and bow when u endorse, and thank you when u leave.

I assume in a country where it really isn't that difficult looking for whichever vices you tick by, that society here isn't as pent up as back home. Moreover its a pretty nonchalant thing over here. Vices as they are. Society here just totally comprehends, period. Given the more temperate climate, what i observe is that the lonelier person will probably feel more comfortable here. Tolerant and condoning this place is. Back home you might get glares and get slapped with sarcasm et al. Not here. No. I also notice that women here cling on to their man alot more. Bring on the endearment baby! haha. Endearment ftw!Well. Maybe higher male mortality is to blame lol i don't know. Males here die a lil younger and abruptedly as well. Which could really mean a lot less eligible men for the middle aged woman here. Guess people here feel that being happy and contented with each other is > than what society thinks about their public display of affection. And this society already doesn't !<3.

Well. 3rd trip to the Loo and 4th cuppa tea. Am gonna play the only game i know how amongst em all. There's Lineage and Ragnarok but no pangya nor gunbound nor Warcraft. OMG no warcraft can wth... and there isnt even any in tokyo neither boohoo. Off to Guildwars then. Be Back Soon.

Gaijin Pride!

At a local lanshop now in shinjuku. Japan is brr cold. its a mere 12-15 degrees day or night here.　Highlands its about 5-7 degrees. Bloodflow ebbs your joints and your fingers and ears start to numb and feel like they arent there anymore. Lol. Damn. mental block right now. So much to say, yet so little i want to. brb.

Me. Psychosis Major.

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Stasis

A stasis I am in right now. I keep thinking of her. Kept thinking how I met her. How we got to know each other better. How we slept together, dreamt together. How we were in love. Yet this still haunts and daunts me. How did we ever come apart. Nights and nights I’ve cried to myself, turned to god, sunk into bouts of depression. How I wished I could share more of me with her. How I could kiss her lips once again. Embrace her. Cuddle her. To want no more in life but her. That she would make me complete. Now she’s gone its like some crucial organ had been decapitated from me. I don’t eat sleep sing or smile or joke as jovially anymore. Is this how it eventuates out to be? Subtle gradual acceptance of this breakup? It devours me so.

I really miss her. Yearning. Anticipating. Waiting. Its some place I haven’t been to before. Some place not many people can say they’ve been to. That convulsive churning desire enveloping every inch of your body. The basal desire for companionship. Hers. She seldom talked to me. I must have been indignant. Maybe I ignored her. Maybe her selflessness didn’t allow her to bring to my attention her feelings for me were gone. Maybe it was a role play. Its been over a year now. Come back to me. Take advantage of me. I don’t care anymore. I want her so badly it hurts.

Dear time. Please turn back. It is said u were the only entity in the universe which would embrace the emotion of love. Unveil yourself. Go back to the times we would embrace. Now pause. Go back to the times we would kiss. Now pause. Go back to the times we were happy and cheerful. Now pause. Go back to the times we didn’t want more. Once again pause. Much thanks, sweet time. Don’t go forward? Please? Time? I like it here. Its tranquil. Its warm. I am happy here. Should you move on I shall suffer pain. I shall be sad. I shall suffer rejection. I shall be disdained. But I will still yearn for her. Still love her. Still want her. Still give my all. Still do crazy things for her. Still want to make her happy. Still be overwhelmed by her. Enveloped in what was our sweet love. I love her.

Ballads I listen to. They sadden me and make me think of her. Food loses its interest. Life is dry when the river of love dries up. Parched we become. Insatiable thirst unquenched. Dear god. Is our insatiable thirst such as so? Love? To be loved? To love? If there be a tree of love. Lord thy temptation be great to eat its fruit. By my side, emptiness. Only with her will I be sanctified. Love to redeem I shall want.

Confusion. Anger. Pain. Suffering. Tears. Humility. Redemption. Heartache. Desire. Hunger. Insanity. And confusion again. What is this mysterious strength holding me back. This strength which incapacitates me. Knocks me senseless. I want her heart. Does she still want mine? Its barely intact. Coronary glue, I shall need. Wholeness eludes. Women I do not want. Her I do. Yet have her I cannot. Difficult be, this test of god.

What do I do now? Someone tell me.

I give up.

You Are 20% Boyish and 80% Girlish

Even if you're not a girl, you're very feminine. You're in touch with your feelings, and your heart rules you. A bit of a emotional roller coaster, one moment you're up and the next you're down. But no matter what, you try to be as cute and perky as possible.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

Hope.

I meet her for late dinner after watching the movie 'The Sentinel'. We end up having lots of laughs, talking bout history, more laughs, feeling totally comfortable with each other. 'Hey wanna come up to my place?' 'Sure.' I was not expecting anything to happen. I am the kind to excercise self control. She asks about catholicism vs. christianity and i clarify her doubts as calmly and composed as i can. We watch Spongebob Squarepants together. Then she offs the lights for pillow talk. 'Stay till the rain ends'. 'Oh, okay, thanks'.

Then she lights her aroma candles, taps the lava lamp. She closes the curtains and turns on some deephouse. Then she offs the lights and leans close to me. We start talking. The music is intruigingly hypnotic. I fall into a Trance. We talk some more. 'This is a cosy room huh, like it?' 'Of course i do, its lovely.' Yea all my friends say so, thats why they like to stay over'. 'I think my friend is prettier than me, when we club all the guys keep asking her for her phone number, its never me.' 'Why not you?' 'Maybe i look fierce haha' 'Nah, u dont, you're a very nice person'.

I get so in the mood i keep wanting to kiss her but i dont. I know she'll say no. Then we talk about her ex boyfriends and the current guy she likes. I bend over and ask her slowly. 'Can i kiss you?' 'Oh, no, don't.' 'Okay'. 'Alot of guys have said that to me before'.

Am i just another guy? I think to myself. 'Oh rain's stopped'. 'Yea i better get going too'. At the door she asks: 'What made u want to kiss me? maybe u think too much'. Maybe i have. 'A kiss is just a kiss, nothing more, dont think too much too k?' But the fact i wanted to. That says volumes of who you are. But i didnt get to say that. I just walked home in the drizzle. Thinking about the relationships i had in the past. I truely affirm to myself that attraction is sometimes ambience. She certainly knew how to create that. Sometimes it feels good to fall for something like that, even though you know you are going to.

It surely wasn't lust. I had not intended of having intimacy beyond a certain point. Had it been beyond that point i would have pulled a stop. But i do know i am very comfortable with her. And she has this sullen vulnerable aura about her which makes you feel you want to get to know her better. And that i did. She let me know her better. It is reward enough. Will i see her again?

I want to.

Hope teases you sometimes.

I hope i get to Love again.

Amen.

If at first you dont suck seed.

Your IQ Is 135

Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average Your Verbal Intelligence is Genius Your Mathematical Intelligence is Genius Your General Knowledge is Genius

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Your IQ Is 105

Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average Your Verbal Intelligence is Above Average Your Mathematical Intelligence is Exceptional Your General Knowledge is Exceptional

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Your Birthdate: January 7

You are an island. You don't need anyone else to make you happy. And though you see yourself as a loner, people are drawn to you. Deep and sensitive, you tend to impress others with your insights. You also tend to be psychic - so listen to that inner voice! Your strength: Your self sufficiency Your weakness: You despise authority Your power color: Maroon Your power symbol: Hammer Your power month: July

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Sunday Morning.

Woke up at 7a.m today, washed up and went with lionel's mum to volunteer at Laguna Country Club's Osim Golf Masters event. What an eye opener to the world of golf, i must say. Met this cute Japanese boy named Aki. Taught me a bit of jap'nese. We basically stuck to each other the whole time. Golf is damn shiong if you're the scoreboard holder. Essentially, Golf is about completing 18 holes. each hole length is about 400m - 500m, nice total of 9km raw course walking, save for other miscellaneous coverage of Hole to Hole. I estimate today to be about 15km walked altogether, to and fro and around the clubhouse.

Golf can be very therapeutic, you get totally absorbed into the game some one else is playing. And we were ultimately happy a Singaporean won the competition. Feels proud to be singaporean a tad. You know how the general atmosphere is like, All the rich powerful people all saturated on an uberly refined sport. In Golf its about exploiting limits and optimisation once again. The challenge? Topography. Anyways, it was a superbly successful event. They provide all volunteers with a $50 adidas shirt, $20 cap and $20 food vouchers to boot. We were on the course a good 6 hours without sitting one bit, but then again, given 4 putts per hole and each player taking 2 minutes to take the shot, one hole takes about 20 mins, gives us just about under 6 hours. Lol.

Aki wants to be pro very badly and gets hyper around any mention of golf. haha. Ambitious for a 12 yr old, then auntie annie went to chide him on 'the importance of education'. Aki = pwned. Muaha. Aki's dad and sister followed us throughout the 3 players we were assigned to and this golfer gave her his golf ball. She Beamed. Aki's dad happens to also be a bigwig in JVC. Talk about meeting people in golf. And then there was this scorer aunty who had a son who went to NS after she withdrew him from JC to pursue golf. National golfer calibre, of course.

Aki: Hey, how old are you?
Me: How old do i look?
Aki: 17?
Me: 22 la, how the...

Scorer Aunty: How old are you?
Me: How old do i look?
Scorer Aunty: 17, 18 lor.
Me: No la aunty, i finish NS in Uni already.
Scorer Aunty: Wah cannot be, you look very young.
Me: Very young meh.. I coming Uncle already...
Scorer Aunty: *Black face* You still young man.
Me: Orh. *pupils vertically upward*

Lotsa chiobu Carlsberg mascots. woo lala. Yes, Slim, Big Chest, Attractive face and curves, and above all, very sociable. Amen la i tell you. Then they had some poor emirates stweardesses in full air service crew attire to mascot for emirates. Osim also had the igallop and ipamper booth. Awesome conglomeration.

Anyways, what really was interesting was the post surprise. The uber interior of the club was amazing, awesome baths and convieniently placed hot jaccuzi pools next to them. Finished basking in hot water, dried self, walked out, then "oO" wah, Osim massage chairs( All for me??). Evil propoganda never seemed so good. Indulge i shall. Then a whole array of personal grooming stuff was next door. I love the bryl cream for protein rich supplement for hair, must find sia. Headed to clubhouse to eat, had beer batter fish and chips, and took away a ham and cheese sandwich set to bring over to reuben's.

Took a cab there, cost me only $4.50, gave bel and albert food and observed their pandemic chicken pox. Like over liao liddat.Picked up my tennis balls and took cab home. Albert bit Bel when she fed him the last chunk of sandwich, Lmao. Malorie went church and reuben's out with diane again. Aww.

Arrived home, to message lionel if my phone was there (it naturally was) Played Dota and Talked on the phone with Angie. Johnny she loves u alot sia, even to the point of asking me to impart my culinary skills. Aiseh. Can i have an onion and garlic chopping slave for a month since i'm doing her a favour? Hee.

Valentine's Day Reminisce

Huge update, collating events besides school. Got into Clan FTK which DotA's, got to know quite a few good hearts minds and souls. Been very often over to tonn at Reuben's and Lionel's place. Knew this cute brother called Albert of reuben's. Cooked spaghetti there (dragged cristabel to help, muahaha), baked them brownies now and then. Enjoyable gamer's nirvana of endless gaming, eating, ordering macs/kfc at weee weee hours of the morning. Arranging tennis once malorie recovers from the trauma of chicken pox o_O and possible doing Fish and Chips soon (yes this is a teaser ahaha). Giving Bel A math tuition (self-righteously-induced trauma >_<)

Lionel. Amazingly beautiful house, very amicable mum, and dem hilariously adorable grandma. Happened to be through the transition of his new Computer. Quaint, how lionel got his Com too. Anyways, we did up this MSI motherboard AMD 64 Bit 3.2 Ghz Com, 1 Gig Corsair Ram, 160 GB HDD, with some Nvidia-MSI 256 Mgb GEForce4 card. After we had good specs, bummer, horrid connection, however, easily rectified with the purchase of a 30 metre ethernet cable, out his room, down the staircase, under the carpet to the modem. Hah. DotA bliss awaits. Excellent birthday present too, that computer. His mum makes super knockout punch (more like roundhouse kick, legdrop then bodyslam and backbreaker) i was out for like 2 hrs. Learnt never to ever drink 5x200ml of hyper punch when Dehydrated. *Sehhh* We made chicken mayo there for breakfast once, and i brought over this bottle of new year cookies which adrain's mum made for me (2 bottles actually, i soot one myself >_<).

Tuition. Been giving Adrain Tuition now, since August 2005, kudos to adrain, even his mum is curious why he's got the study bug all of a sudden, as usual lahh, me corrupts kid. Adrian DotA's too, must train him! Then i received a message of a new job somewhere in Bishan. Very smart girl, Primary 6. Paranoid Mum. Add 2 dashes of insecurity, tadaaa, i have a new responsibility. =P. So thats more income, more responsibility, Less time to erm, waste my life away muahaha. My Sister charmaine once again did amazingly well for her exams. Whoopie. Easy victor, no pressure to be a sucess in life, no pressure... *pant*. Of course if she needs any help, she can come to me. But this proud little twerp has mettle, i'll tell ya that. Arrogant Determined Girl. Too bad some emotional autism Did eventually rub off unto her. Poor me. I gotta incalcate some damage control quick.

Cleared the 2k cheated from me. Spiritual enlightenment i swear. Trauma over. Joy. Time's a ticking, have exams and tests to actually finally sit down and study for. Come on Vic. Stop Debilitating your development hor. Aha. As of now, i devote most of my time to earning my keep and being proud of it, game, play more sports, juggle my leisure and books.

Going out with vernon tomorrow, movie lunch and a quick pop over to check out his PC. Mac users always find the XP a mystery o_O.

"Reset the World" - Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex 2

Tachikoma damn cute la. Deeper Blogging Soon lala~